Explosions in the Sky

Departures, conjectural encounters, phantasms....I will leave it at this. Lost in a mental mind-field, over-reacting to every situation, creating a fragile facade....What have i become? These things just make me remind myself how vain i am and my existence is a phantasmal chimera, constantly, i am like an explosion in the sky, spectacular by radiating everywhere, limited by the encounters of all the other particles exploding (i.e. a phantasmal trace with the velocity of a thousand protons floating in a void of encounters, never existing before, and only effective after their encounter, but how does this encounter occur? It is not preset....My own encounter, which i shall only refer to in allegorical metaphor, is something so bizarre, so mundane, that it suits my self-projections and isolations, though as stated before, this is the isolation from the center, the explosion forces out, but the center can not hold, for there is no center, the radiance is complete, total, multiple, singular, bifurcating...Enough, words for now are not enough.... Think...... what to say.... how to bring this conceptual explosion out to the fore from in the sky.